Running Strategy-No Fear

On my quest to stop sabotaging my runs I came across a video by Dr Rob Bell a professional fitness coach.  In it he talks in-depth about NO FEAR an acronym he developed to explain how to be mentally tough.

Every run is a battle between your heart and mind and mental toughness is an absolute necessity for all runners.  I really loved this acronym and it is the perfect strategy/training tool, irrespective of your ability.

The framework helps you to find your obstacles whether mental or physical and can be used to create a plan of action to address them.  The action plan can be reviewed and refined to look at what works and what doesn’t work and changed for each goal you have.

I just wanted to share how I have used it as a tool to guide my running and perhaps show you how you could use it to progress on your own running journey.

Each letter relates to a sub heading.  Which can then be used to direct you.

N = Never Give Up

“Keep kicking, turn that cream into butter”  Dr Rob Bell

I use this section as my opportunity for a little self motivation and to remind myself why I am not going to give up.

I map progress as a reminder of my achievements.  I do this with Facebook and my Garmin.

I hold myself accountable-to family friends and to all my fellow running nuts.

O – Obstacles 

“No grain of sand, no pearl, turn your obstacles into opportunities”  Dr Rob Bell.

My obstacles – how do I turn them into an opportunity?


All my life I have been told I cannot do things because I have epilepsy and every time I have defied their expectations.  Having epilepsy has been my grain of sand which I have turned into many different pearls!  Therefore, running success is just another pearl in the making!

2. Fitness base or lack there of!

After living in the big city of London, it is time to get outside, enjoy the countryside and become active.  Fitness is a natural by-product of running,  and each run will be a step closer to being even fitter than I was before, no matter how small a run.

2. Time

Take running kit to work and run home.  If I Don’t take my bus pass I have to run home.   Perfect opportunity to see daylight and to run off stress and frustrations as well as meet my goals.

Planned long run with running buddies on Sundays.  Go for lunch afterwords for catch up to make it an even more attractive proposition.

  1. Negativity

Running negativity led to my first bog post Conquering Negativity on Tough Runs. This was my starting point on the journey to overcoming negativity.  NO FEAR is my framework to build my own mental toughness.  This is still a work in progress!

F- Focus

” Have a goal for everything you are doing” Dr Rob Bell

Goal – Currently Half Marathon

Focus on building up to distance by working to a plan.  Currently using run keeper half marathon plan

Create new mantra and positive inner dialogue for the tough sections of the run.  Thinking might change mine and use Dr Bell’s  ‘No grain of sand, no pearl’

Keep checking pace and form.  ‘Keep slow and steady, loose and ready, to win’

Do one thing on the run to create a positive memory of it to motivate for the next run.  Say hi to other runners and passers-by.

Most of all keep smiling.

E = Re-focus

’60 seconds spent looking at the mistakes is a minute lost looking at the play’ Dr Rob Bell. 

How was the run?

What worked well?  Can I build on this?

What didn’t?  What do I need to change to turn it around?

Re-focus plan


” the brain is a muscle, direct the brain that everything is a challenge, an opportunity” Dr Rob Bell

Be positive

Be determined

Be a runner

R= Respond

“Respond don’t react’ Dr Rob bell

Run went well – What is your next goal for your next run?

Run not so well – Opportunity to learn from it

Happy Running Total Running Nuts Everywhere.

Running is more than just pounding the streets! It is the road to freedom, friendship, focus and fulfilment!

Like most novice runners you immediately think about taking up running as part of a fitness regime, a weight loss goal or setting yourself a new challenge.  However, since the beginning of my running journey I have discovered that it is much more than that.

When I started running back in 2012 it was to complete my first 10K and in the process I wanted to raise awareness of my mum’s health condition (Alpha one) .

Running for Alpha one

After achieving that initial 10K I built on the sense of fulfilment that I got from fundraising and making a difference to those that struggle with long term illness on a daily basis.  I therefore, started searching for my next challenge.

I have always naturally been quite competitive and enjoyed challenging myself.   Therefore, rather than aim for the next, most obvious, distance of a half marathon, I decided to go for the big one….  Running the 2013, London Marathon!  As you can imagine this was not easy but I thankfully achieved it.

After this I did another couple of half marathons: Bath in 2014 and the Great North Run in 2016.

Great North Run
Great North Run

Now I am not going to lie, training for these distances was part of an overall lifestyle change. I did not run for short periods to conquer these running challenges; it was a constant in my life.  It was part of my daily, weekly and monthly routine.

I truly believe that if you embrace running as part of your lifestyle it truly helps you to grow both physically and mentally.

Not only, do I feel incredibly proud and satisfied to have achieved half and full marathon distances.  I also feel proud because I helped support my mum and other friends with Alpha One and Cancer illnesses.

During the process I have learned a lot about myself and that running, for me, has been an enabler to other things.

Firstly friendship, running with other people either socially or at running club, sharing training tips and life’s challenges on a personal level.

Secondly freedom,  getting out there on the open road sucking in the fresh air. Feeling like a free spirit as you either pound the streets, off road trails or sand dunes,  it does wonders for the soul.  The feeling of peace you get as you release and let go of life’s daily frustrations.

Thirdly, it gives you focus, a desire to want to catch up and go for a run with your friends. Even challenge yourself on a solo route, thinking about how you will feel at the end of it.  The sense of achievement from the physical endurance you have undertaken and a sense of emotional empowerment at having completed it.

Finally, running gives you a sense of fulfilment and an opportunity to learn more about yourself and try other things.

Because of running, I have started coaching a couple of my friends in pursuit of their first half marathon challenge.  Seeing their progression, determination and their evolvement as individuals has been incredibly rewarding.

Running Buddies
Suzi, Lisa and Heidi

Running has enabled me to push my own physical boundaries and try other activities such as cross fit, surfing, swimming, yoga, coastal walking and hard-core gym training.  It has empowered me as an individual.

Through the increase in my fitness levels, I have sought to further improve the delivery of my business,  Ship Shape aerobics class .  It has given me the desire to deliver fitness provision to more specialist clients.  In the longer term it has motivated me to work towards obtaining my personal training qualification.

So whatever level of running you are at and whatever your reasons are in the pursuit of pounding those streets…. Stop! Take a minute to reflect on your experiences and ask yourself this question: is it a short term goal or subconsciously are you on the road to embracing running as a longer term lifestyle? A platform to bigger and better things for your mind, body and soul!

Whichever you decide happy running!


Motivation-get yourself running out the door.


Motivation!  My levels of motivation are constantly in flux, sometimes I am so motivated that I tend to overtrain. Whilst, when things are not going so well I struggle to motivate myself to run out the door.  I suspect most of you can identify with this!  So I have drawn up a list of motivators that I use or think about when I am trying to get myself out of the door.

Running Buddies have been key in my motivation.  I have two friends that I go running with, one started the couch to 5K with me and the other is a seasoned runner, in fact a marathoner!   There has been much research done on what makes a good running buddy.

However for me one of my running buddies drives my training and motivates me to improve and do better.   The other motivates me to go for a run and keep me running!  For me I think I have the best of both worlds but I personally don’t think all buddies are equal – I think it is dependent on your needs.

I have friends who have moved away from aiming for distances as they know they can complete them.  There are others who aim for beating their previous time on a 5K, a new personal record. Maybe when I am further along my running journey, I may need to add a new dimension to my training and perhaps a different running buddy to help me achieve that personal record.  So I guess what I am trying to say is that your motivational running buddy will depend on what you are trying to achieve either physically or mentally – they need to be a good fit!

Online forums,  I am a massive fan of them.  A place where like minded people can share and support each other.  Particularly good when your running buddies are not available and you need some inspiration, motivation or just plain advice.  I belong to a couple and I have found the online communities a safe place to air your inner most concerns as no-one knows you and you are not likely to meet them!

I belong to a Facebook group called  On the Wagon which is a health and wellbeing page ultimately. George Anderson the founder, is a runner, and has written running training programmes such as beginners luck. Despite being a heath and well being site, there are a lot of runners on this site.

The forum gets used in a number of ways to provide motivation such as a photo of the rain pounding down with a caption do I go running in this?  Immediately members of the group start answering with images of the run they were on or had been on, in the rain.  Stating, how much fun it was and encouraging them to take the plunge.  Each member gives or takes from the group what they want or need.

I get inspired by how the members are genuinely supportive and how they celebrate each other’s wins and commiserate losses but are their with advice and a “do not give up” followed by their story for motivation to carry on.

One member wrote I cannot seem to find the motivation today, totally fallen of the Wagon.  Within minutes there were messages of support and inspiration to help them get straight back on that Wagon.

George uploads topical video’s, pretty regularly, which motivate and inspire and is ever present and responsive to posts.  Sometimes he will pick out some key comment and do a post on that alone.

I would highly recommend this as a source of motivation it has definitely kept me going and inspired.  So for me forums are a must!

New kit there is nothing quite like it!  Now I was born a shopaholic and I am definitely a magpie when it comes to shiny new things no matter what they are.   However, Sportswear was definitely not on that list.  Going into a sports shop used to fill me with dread.  Whether male or female who wants to be seen in lycra, right?

Well, now I get more excited about buying sportswear than any other item of clothing.  What can I say I am a changed women and I definitely think an alien has taken over my body.

I enjoy taking the time to ponder the latest selection of sportswear or sports tech, before making my purchase and rushing home with it.  All the way home I am itching to try out whatever bit of kit or tech I have bought.  I do think I run a bit better when I have new kit because of course it has super powers, doesn’t it?  Plus I have got to make buying that kit worthwhile.  I mean if you have paid the money, you need to prove that it was a necessity, and the only way to do that is run.  So without doubt  new kit is a massive motivator in my book.  My Garmin certainly did the trick, as did my trainers.

Body adaptations, the more I have run the more my shape has changed.  I have, lost weight and developed this strange thing called muscle.  OK, I may not have hugely defined muscles but there is most certainly definition on its way.  Your body getting leaner and fitter is an amazing motivator.  Especially when it’s all happening without me having to be on some awful make you miserable diet.

I will never forget the moment where sitting with my legs crossed I went to adjust my skirt and thought what’s that lump on my knee?  It was a knee bone that sat proudly, no longer covered in a pudgy layer of fat!!  Something seemingly so insignificant to others was massive for me. It was a reminder of what I am doing, why I am doing it and the reward I was getting for it.  This most definitely made me  want to go out for a run immediately, who knew a knee bone could motivate!

The weather,  is a very British, much loved, topic of conversation and no more so than with regard to running.   I have celebrated and bemoaned the weather in equal measure so here is my breakdown of the weather and motivators for even the worse days.


Wind running against you means you have worked harder so even more satisfying when you complete the run.  Feeling the burn means more calories and a leaner fitter body, that is definitely not something to moan about.

Wind behind you is giving you a helping hand – so great if your wanting an easier run…..honest!


You don’t overheat and I am sure it helps with hydration! Running in the rain makes me feel like a child again.  I can almost hear my mother saying, ‘come out of the rain you silly child’.    Also, I always feel like a ‘proper’ runner if the rain has not stopped me going out.   I have always thought of those running out in the rain, serious about training and fitness!


Again you get to wear lovely layers and wrap up.  It’s lovely and quiet so you have the footpaths to your self and again I generally feel hardcore if I run when its cold.  The bath when you get home is heavenly and soothes those aching muscles.


I have yet to experience this but I imagine I will like the sound of crunching underfoot and the magic of it all.


There is nothing quite like running on a sunny day. The sun beating down on you – yes it’s hot, yes you sweat but you cannot help but enjoy it.

Time of day is a real motivator and a real deal breaker for me..

I am not a morning person and certainly not early morning.  I have run once with my running buddy at 6am.  My body was screaming what the hell are you doing to me?? I Found out unsurprisingly, and very early on, that I am not a morning runner I am most definitely an evening runner.

So I learned that in order to stay motivated I needed my running to be timed with my natural circadian rhythm.  Otherwise quite frankly I would not make it past month one!  So definitely need to find a running time that works with you not against you.

Non runners can be really strong motivation to run and not necessarily for the reasons you may think.  You see, there is something seriously addictive to being the fit one.  When your friends or colleagues are saying “What your running home after work?, you must be mad” “I don’t know where you find the time or the energy” “you go girl, wish I had half the energy you have”.  “You ran how far?”.  Turning your identity around from being the couch potato, to that person you said you hated, but secretly admired for being ‘fit’ is kind of addictive!   It makes you want to live up to their expectations of you and confirm their opinion that yes I am one of those exercise bunnies I always thought I would never be!!

Don’t mistake this for the friends who give you a pat on the back because they know how hard you have worked.  One is about being seen to have a new identity the other is having your hard work recognised and congratulated.  In one you are the fit bunny and in the other your still trying to be.

Once you are recognised for being a fit bunny you begin to accept and admit your identity has changed from couch potato to fitness slave and what a psychological high that gives you.  You absolutely have no intention of going backwards so if that is not motivation what is!

Stress can be your biggest motivator to run.  We all have those days when you have had your buttons pushed and your really frustrated, annoyed, angry, stressed.  You have kept all this emotion locked up and on the down low so as not to commit murder at work. You get home, take it out on your partner, the cat, or some poor unsuspecting inanimate object. You start on the wine,  cigarettes, chocolate and any other vice I can lay my hands on.

Well low and behold I have found running grounds me and calms me.  I literally run my stress off,  alright maybe not completely but mostly.  Running seems to take the energy out of it.  Running is like meditation.  Concentrating on pounding your feet on the ground is akin to stamping your feet as a child to release that pent up energy.

When I get home I am at least partially de-stressed and not swinging from the lampshades.  I generally enjoy my evening better and sleep better.  Running also gives me the opportunity to think things through enabling me to gain perspective…….never a bad thing!

I think all of the reasons above are more than enough to help motivate me to get out the door.

What are your motivators?  Feel free to leave me a comment.



Conquering Negativity on Tough Runs.

Mental Demons

Ever since I started running last year I have struggled mentally to get through the tough parts of a run.  You know the ones, where your legs feel tired and self doubt starts to creep in.  That little voice in your head is screaming, “I can’t do this”   “my legs hurt’, ‘I can’t breathe’, ‘I can’t go on any further’….. and crippling negativity continues to the point that you stop running!  

Well I got a little fed up with hearing from this little demon and decided to look into how I could switch this negative inner voice off.  There was a number of dots I had to link together to work out what worked for me.  I cannot say I have totally nailed it but it is certainly better than it was.

Giving it an identity

Firstly, I decided to give the ‘inner voice’ an identity, mainly so I could tell it to ‘get lost’!  I named my inner voice ‘Bob’.  I have absolutely no idea why I called him Bob or why it is a ‘him’ not a ‘her’.  For all you Bobs out there it is nothing personal!

By naming my inner voice Bob, it has enabled me to externalise and separate him from myself and create a different inner dialogue.  I no longer hear myself, saying, ‘I can’t do this’, I hear Bob saying, ‘you can’t do this’.  This means, In my case I can shout (metaphorically) at Bob,  ‘ what do you know of course I can’.  I start this conversation with bob just as the negativity creeps in, at the point of ‘I’ which can sometimes prevent a fully formed ‘I can’t do this’.  The more you hear I can’t the more you believe it so if you can stop it at ‘I’ my theory is your already preventing some of that negativity and self doubt.

This did prevent Bob appearing quite as often but he still continued to appear and I still sabotaged my runs, just not quite so soon in the run or as frequently.  The question remained what could I do to stop sabotaging my runs?

Visualisation and Mantra’s

I have read a lot about visualisation, in particular,  visualising the running route, and preparing for the tough parts of the run by visualising the strategies you would use to run the route successfully.  This is great if you are a visual thinker but I really struggle visualising anything, it is not how my brain works.  Needless to say this was not for me.

There is also a lot of information out there on using a Mantra to improve positive thinking and self belief on a run.   A mantra is a word or phrase that is used to provide a positive focus.  Ideally Mantra’s need to be short enough that you can recall them quickly and easily, to divert the mind away from negative thoughts.  I liked the idea of a Mantra but trying to decide on one that was relevant and powerful for me was proving difficult.    I tried a few and none seemed to work so at that time, I decided it was not for me.


So here is where talking to friends can be quite enlightening at times.  A friend asked me a very key question.  ‘Did you ever have a humiliating sporting experience at school?’  I think most people can safely say at one point or another they did.

I hated everything about sports and sports days.  I was always picked last for netball or any other sport for that matter.  Possibly, more significantly, I was made to run 1500 metres on sports day and I came last.  Not only did I come last, but I was spectacularly slow, I was that slow that the spectators cheering the runners on had left.  I therefore, came back to the school kids laughing at me and taking the proverbial!  Looking back at it now, its quite funny, however, at the time I was embarrassed and quite upset.  In reality, instead of being upset I should actually have felt proud that I completed the run!  But what had this got to do with my running prowess?

Finding the key to my inner dialogue

The eureka moment came when with the help of my friend I connected the dots.

The early sporting moments of being picked last because ‘I was no good at sport’ and being chosen to do the 1500 metres and coming last, had set me up to fail.  Although I completed the run, in my mind and in the mind of my school friends, I did fail spectacularly as I came a very slow last.

If you hear ‘you can’t’ or ‘your no good’ or ‘you came last’ enough you start to believe it and internalise it.  It becomes ‘I can’t do this’, ‘I am no good at this’ ‘I will fail’, ‘I am going to look foolish’.

As I got older I started to give myself excuses and I started to focus on the because!  ‘I can’t do this because… my legs are tired’, ‘I can’t do this because ….I am struggling to breathe’, I can’t do this because……I have been ill, the list goes on and on.

How did I address it?

For me I thought that if I was going to stop sabotaging my runs – I needed to change this inner dialogue and turn the negative into a positive.

This is when I returned to the idea of having a mantra.  I was listening to my running playlist and one particular song always lifted my spirits, Mark Ronson – uptown funk.  There is a line in the song which is,  ‘ If you don’t believe me just watch’.  This was the perfect mantra for me.

Saying this in response to Bob works really well – it sounds like this:

Bob – you can’t

Me – If you don’t believe me just watch.

It motivates me, as I am essentially saying, I can do this you just watch me prove you wrong.

Does it work?

I am not saying it is full proof but it has helped me enormously.  By not only adding a mantra but focusing that mantra at the route-cause of the negativity has made it much more effective.  It changed my psyche from disabling to enabling and I am taking back control.

Using these techniques has helped me to not only run longer but also at a faster pace.  Bob helped me get to 5K and Bob plus mantra (plus coach) helped me get to 10K.  Each time you overcome that negativity and conquer your goal, you are taking the power of ‘I can’t” away.  You are also turning the ‘I can’t’s into ‘ I did’s” which progresses to ‘I did it before, I can do it again’.


I don’t expect to never have a bad run or never to self-sabotage but I do intend to keep trying to find the route causes and take the control back.  I will not allow negativity to continue to dis-enable me!

How do you manage your negativity on tough runs?


I have been a runner for about a year and would still class myself as a beginner.   Like countless others, running has not come easily and has required a lot of hard work and gritted determination.  In truth I was never in love with the idea of running but an opportunity presented itself, the stars aligned and all came together to turn me into a total running nut, (see ‘my running journey so far’ to find out more).  Needless to say running has now become an obsession and I am forever trying to get better at it!

So being the geek I am, I have read, researched and discussed all things running. Sometimes out of interest and sometimes because I am struggling and I am looking for ways to overcome the issues that I am experiencing.  Along the way I have found out some pretty interesting stuff which has helped me and could potentially help other new running nuts.

Therefore, the purpose of this blog is for you to find a catalogue of information that I have found useful.  More specifically,  it will detail how I have used and interpreted it to try and overcome my issues.  This blog will also cover my running journey including all the highs and lows and some of my ‘inner chat’ so that it may help some of you guys to see your not the only ones going through it.

Equally, what you guys are reading, discussing and finding useful is relevant to me and other running nuts and so I am keen for you to share what you are learning and any hints and tips that may be of use.

Therefore, I am hoping this blog will provide a common platform and develop a community of running nuts to share information, hints and tips.  In the process we may be able to develop our running abilities, motivate and inspire ourselves and other running nuts everywhere.

Thanks for taking the time to read this and I sincerely hope this blog works and is of use to you all. If you have any feedback, it would be really welcomed after all this site is for all of you total running nuts not just me!

If you would like me to research a topic on your behalf and feed back to you and others please let me know.

Finally, if you would like to publish a post on this site credited to you then please feel free to get in touch and I would be happy to chat through with you.

Lisa a ‘Total Running Nut’

My Running Journey so Far

The Trigger to Run

It’s hard to believe that in June 2016 I was seriously unfit, overweight and most definitely exercise adverse.

I was unwell in Jan of 2016 which forced me to re-evaluate my life. Leading with the question “what can I do to help myself?”.   I looked at the usual suspects, diet, stress levels,  and work/life balance.  The very last thing I wanted to think  about was exercise!!  However, I did and started with increasing  my steps to 10,000 a day.  Most days I managed 2000, which I had to admit was pretty poor.  My (not so uncommon) excuse was that I work in an office and obviously, could not find the time to fit any exercise in.  So instead I tried to make up for it by going for walks along the beautiful cliff tops of Cornwall at the weekends.  Although nice, socialising with friends soon got in the way and so another excuse was found not to go for that walk.  So then I thought rather than take up my precious weekends I tried Zumba during the week, but soon found out that classes are really not my thing.  Basically no matter what I tried, none of it  enthused me enough to make exercise a habit!

Then I met up with my lovely neighbour Suzie one night for a “glass of fizz” and all that changed.  Suzie told me that some of her friends were starting an after work running club.  Apart from the two running coaches none of the group were runners.  This seemed perfect as we would all be starting at the same point, so I asked to join and my running journey began.

Can I Run?

I would love to say I was a natural runner and that it was easy but I would most definitely be lying!  For an overweight,  exercise adverse person like me it was never going to be easy and trust me it wasn’t and isn’t!

Initially I only had to run 1 minute and walk 1.5 for a total 30 mins which equated to 10 mins of running overall. After the first minute I felt like my lungs were about to explode and I was struggling to find any breath whatsoever.  Quite simply I was shocked and mortified in equal measure, how had I ever got to this level of unfitness.  However, with lots of support I continued to come to the classes each week and slowly worked up to 3 minutes of continuous running.

Pain and Trainers

Then,  came the painful shin splints and muscle cramps that would try to sabotage any attempts I made to try and complete a full 4mins of running.  The coaches suggested my footwear may need upgrading and recommended a running shop called “at your pace”.

So off to “At Your Pace” running shop I went.  I walked up to the front door and thought,  oh no no no no,  “I cannot go in there – it’s for “serious runners”.  I panicked for a bit and then braved it and walked in.  This otherworld that I was being thrown into was initially intimidating.  That is until I introduced myself to the guy behind the counter.  I explained to him I was doing the couch to 5K and was not a proper runner but had been advised to come and get some shoes to overcome shinsplints etc.  He told me firstly he hated the term Couch to 5K– it is beginner to 5K and secondly welcome to running which immediately put me at ease.

He then started to talk about ‘Gait analysis‘ this is where you run on a treadmill and video your foot placement to see whether you land on the outside (overpronation) inside (supination) or in a neutral position.  This helps to guide what trainers you require.

The thought of being video’d running on a treadmill by a fit runner was not filling me with delight!   Initially I had to run barefoot and then in the trainers I usually run in, which was not too bad lasted about 30-60 seconds each.  I manage to do this without too much embarrassment thankfully and he stated that I had an over-pronation and would require stabilising shoes. Fine I thought until he came down with 6 pairs of trainers and told me I had to run in every pair, i was horrified.   ” I have to run for a minute in each pair?” ” Yes so that we can find a shoe that puts your foot in the best alignment to correct your overpronation”.  I nearly ran out the shop, heck I could only run for 3 minutes and I was going to have to run in all 6.  It’s not like I could ask for a timed break between each pair.  I did not want to embarrass myself further,  I swallowed hard and puffed and panted my way through the 6 pairs of trainers.  I chose the Brooks ravenna 8’s – he asked me whether  I wanted to run in them one last time to be sure that I was comfortable in them.  My brain screamed “HELL NO” but what actually came out was “no thanks I am happy with my choice”.

My first pair of proper running shoes and they are still my most favourite treasured possession.

I took them out for a spin and it was like night and day!  Shin splints and cramp had vanished and I managed 4 whole minutes non-stop.  To say I was ecstatic was an understatement.

Couch to Race Line-Up.

In between the weekly running club as I downloaded the app ‘ couch to 5k in 8 weeks!’  I would like to point out that 8 weeks is false advertising as it took me 7 months to get my first 5k under my belt.  But boy was I chuffed when I did.

Once I had reached my 5k I decided to enter myself and my neighbour into a “proper race” that was run by freedom racing.  The run was advertised as flat and suitable for beginners but was also a mile longer than the 5K I was used to. Despite this I felt optimistic,  after my friend Heidi had manage to get me to the 5k milestone afterall how bad could it be?

Well the big day came – Suzie and I lined up and we were a mix of terrified and excited.  What the hell were we doing with these “proper runners”.  We both felt like imposters.  But again how bad could it be?  We made sure we were at the back  so as not to hold anyone up and off we went.

Hills, Dreaded Hills

We starting off well – it was flat…… that was until we rounded the corner and found this sloping muddy field.  They said no hills…..!  Both Suzie and I fell into a blind panic but quickly got a grip and through gritted teeth ran onwards and most definitely upwards!

It was two circuits so we knew we would face this hill again which did not inspire confidence.  Once we climbed the hill and I fell into the brook at the top Suzie was ecstatic and smiling I was focusing on just making it through without killing myself.

Suzie smiling after the first lap.

Me focused and grimacing – thinking how the hell am I going to make it around another lap,  without killing myself – someone please help me!

Finish Line

I did make it around, not in one hit like Suzie but with multiple stops.  Whilst really relieved and happy I made it around, a little later, I felt disappointed and demoralised that I had not done it without stopping.

Determination and obsession

I nearly ended my running journey there,  but with a lot of moral support I continued.  I looked at how far I had come and thought to give up now would take me back to the couch potato I once was and I did not want that.

This is where my running obsession truly started, I did not want to revert back so I immersed myself in it determined to become a proper runner”.   I read up on anything and everything I could and still do in the aid of being the best I can.  Some of the topics I have read up on are overcoming shin splints, breathing techniques,  psychology of running and how to overcome the negative voices in your head that sabotage your running goals.

All of this reading has helped as I have now reached 10K and I am about to mark this formally by running Vitality 10,000 in London.  If you want to know how I get on look out for my post!

It seems that I have finally become what I never thought I would ” A total running nut”.  I have become one of those lycra clad people I had secretly envied.  Now I spend most of my time reading running magazines, searching the web and watching you tube clips!  I get so excited about new running gear and the latest tech.  Who knew this person was waiting to come out.

So if you think you can’t do it – read this story again as I am living proof that you can.